It is a pretty weird thing to compare someone’s spot in your life now to their spot in your life just a few years or even months ago. how something that your day and life used to revolve around is no longer even a factor in your life. it seems like some big cosmic wink, like, ha, you thought you got to call the shots?? someone I don’t remember ever meeting came into my job today, and asked me if I was one of someone else’s friends, and I couldn’t even open my mouth to respond 1. cuz I didn’t know how to respond and 2. cuz the reality of it was too much for me to even mouth. when it was time for me to go on break I just went in the break room and finally cried after a while, and it wasn’t so much cuz I’m some sad mop, but I guess just remorse for how things used to be.. the naïveté of how it all was makes it sad too. I forbid myself to remember, but sometimes I’m terrified to forget.. so it’s a hard line to walk
And is that what you call tact? You’re as subtle as a brick in the small of my back so lets end this call, and end this conversation. And is that what you call a getaway? Well tell me what you got away with, ‘cause you left the frays from the ties you severed when you say best friends means friends forever.